i know he is
secure and safe.
your mother will not shudder
when you bring him to
dinner dressed 
in a suit and tie, and 
he will know how to start a fire 
in the fireplace without looking 
it up on yahoo answers. 
you can marry him 
in a church and not feel 
God glaring 
down at you. 

but please know that 
i will always laugh 
at that video you love of 
the guy with the cup feet 
no matter how many times you 
replay it. 
my future already has
your name in it. 
we are so much alike that 
i sometimes wonder what 
part of me doesn’t have a piece 
to match up with you. 

everything i am is another 
heart on my sleeve: 
my biggest weaknesses, 
because they are everything 
he is not, and 
he has you.

excerpt from a letter i wrote to an old love // a.s.m