Even before it hits
it is there, building up
in the depths of my ocean;
churning and ruminating
in my darkness.When it crashes within me
this time, I gasp for breath; for hope
that I can do this alone.
For the first time you are not here
to help me float.
For the first time I must learn
to swim on my own.
a drowning desire
to dream, you touch my
shoulder and push me to
sleep.
spin cotton candy from
my spine, pour words over
me like maple syrup and
i will taste them, like
black and white memories,
when i wake.i’m sailing face down
on this ship,
with dinosaur theories
on rippling white waves, and now
i’m running fast
on Italy’s shores;
running towards
crystal green promises
you try not to blink
away;running faster until
i’m flying
above rooftops to
my grandfather’s heart.
she’s at her ripest.
shedding rainbows from her limbs
before all turns white.
i am not higher
in my silence;
i am present.
i am listening
to chatter that does not
matter, to emptiness
disguised as words.i am not lonely
in this darkness;
i am at peace.
still in my shell,
comfortable in nothingness,
as everything dissolves
into one
nothing.
lines from the world above
break the surface of the sky and
shatter into a million stars.the north star is a lie.
it’s a death trap; it will
hook you, it will make you
bleed.don’t you ever wonder where
everyone has gone?
following stars that promise
them something beyond return;
stars that throw your children’s
entrails back into the sea.soon there will be nothing
but sandy bottoms.
killing is what will kill us,
eventually.
and we will only know this
when it becomes too late.
the controller is here
in my hands,
but i can’t move
my thumbs.this video game keeps going
and i am on autopilot:
an endless cycle,
straddling the line between here
and somewhere else.i know i’ve been on the other side,
i just can’t remember when
and i’m waiting for the day
that i feel awake again.
We as a species are always trying to find comfort in purpose, as if we need to justify our existence on this planet by having a ‘reason’ for being here. You do not need a purpose or a reason to be alive on this planet. You have a right to be here simply because you are.
Rather than seeking comfort in purpose, find freedom in understanding that you have no purpose, and that is okay. You alone are enough.
you can change your hair and change your eyes
but your outer shell’s just a disguise
that’s soft to touch but hard to break through,
does anybody really know you?
So much can change
in so little time.
All you had– gone–
in the blink of an eye.
Don’t dwell on the past,
it’s already gone by.
Turn your face to the future
and see how it shines.
Please trust when I say
it’ll all turn out fine,
not long after darkness
the world will be bright.
She knows she is a diamond– she is not waiting for you to tell her so. She is simply waiting for you to realize it yourself.
Silenticel 