new poets on tumblr – Page 9

please don’t love me.
nobody knows better
than i,
it will be a waste of time.
i’d love your eyes more than
any eyes in my life,
i’d lose myself in them
for weeks at a time and
wake up hungover in
strange places.

well eyes // a.s.m

i never wanted
to need you,
but i closed my eyes and
unclenched my heart
and now, when you’re gone,
sometimes
i’m lost.

you have become a refuge.
you lead me
with open palms and
bare soles
to the patch of
sun on the asphalt
while the earth crumbles
around me. you sit cross-legged
and teach me how to smile again
when the muscles in my face
forget.

you kiss me, with lips
like warm blankets, and
i am secure
amidst the chaos.

you engulf me like
the sea, and
i am drowning in
your serenity.

i never thought drowning could be so peaceful // a.s.m

how selfish am I
to live this life,
to see through these eyes,
to want to die?

how selfish am I
to laugh with ease
to seek joy when
there is suffering?

how selfish am I
to strive to calm
the storm inside?
is it selfish
to survive?

survivor’s guilt // a.s.m

the Turkish coffee cup
shards on the floor
draw blood.

that delicate porcelain
holds eighty-two years of life,
wrinkled hands, cardamom
coffee-stained
smiles and desert air;
a shattered mirage on
hard, cold kitchen
tile.

a thousand fangs,
they draw blood and make
home in the soles
of my feet.

cardamom coffee // a.s.m

we can’t build a castle
from these ruins.
a foundation of rubble and sand
will disintegrate in
the slightest wind,
we will always be nothing
again.

sand castle // a.s.m

for you, i will
be what i am afraid to be.
you bring out the most
passionate parts of me.
for you i’ve dug deeper
into myself than i have
for anyone else. i’ve given you
the center of my being,
the tissues of my soul.
for you i am not afraid
to be raw.
with you, i want to be an animal.
i want my lips to touch flesh.

incisors // a.s.m

tonight, you are not
by my side, and I can see
death in the darkness.

constricting blankets // a.s.m

a night alone
with you.
bright star, pale beauty
around which all life in me
revolves.
let all eyes be witness
to your light
in my darkest
hours.

luna // a.s.m

do lips,
like fingers,
have prints?

is there any evidence
you were here
at all?

it’s been days since we touched // a.s.m

i want to see all of you,
every inch. every
mountain, every forest,
every ocean, every river
and canyon. i want to know
every mark on the map,
and i want to fall in love
with all of it.
i want to see and know
this is where i belong.
that you are a part of me
as much as i am a part of you.

let me lie in your valleys // a.s.m