one drink
and your name is looping
in my mindtwo drinks
and i just want you
next to me, i just want
to feel you, i just want you
to make me warm
i hear your name
in the clinks of glassesthree drinks
this space between us
is pulling me like taffy
i am aching for
my skin to touch yours
i am aching for
you and i know i shouldn’t
havefour drinks
the glass is to my lips
and this heat is
sliding down my throat
this heat is
undeniable and
insatiable and i wish
i was sober.
Tag: original poem
i fell in love with
words and promises instead
of with a person.
oh, god.
i’m lost
inside myself again
trapped between the walls
of this flesh
and the implications of what
this meansif you ever let go, because
if i can be lost inside something
as small as myself
if you let me go,if you let me go
i will never find my way
back.
dust constantly collected
on the windowsills
and in the corners
of the room, but
i liked that because
i always knew where to find it.
a firm
mattress was my muse,
pulling words like taffy
pulling poetry that left
a sweetness on my tongue
and a purpose almost as
defined,
as solid, as sturdy
as the walls.
this was home home until
i grew too big and my limbs
tore down the frame.
all that remains:
my body, full of splinters
and a yearning
for the way
the sleepy sun shone
through the windows.
the sky was bruised and blooming
above us, deep
purple and blackthe pool lights darted
by our feet
distorted and refracted.
scattered.
moving with the wateri lay floating
on my back, andfor the first time since
calling you mine, i felt
weightless.you wrapped your arms around
my waistfor the first time
since calling me yours,you carried
me.when the weight returned
to my body
we ran homeour wet footprints left
to dry
beneath the winking moon.
i see you, limp
on the ground
in every room of this house
and sometimes on sidewalks
and in darkly lit places.i’ve been sleeping with the lights
on lately, but
they don’t protect me
from the darkness
that’s entered my mindthey leave,
constantly illuminated,
the inescapable end
i discovered in your eyes
as they rolled back
into your head
on the hardwood floors
where we used to build
empires.
The Seance
we drove
with the windows down
even though it wasn’t quite warm
because it wasn’t cold, either.
and the boy with the curly hair
played Meat Loaf with the volume
at 37:
And I would do anything for love
I’d run right into hell and back…
i see your phantom whoosh
past on the side of the road
and wonder if i ever truly
felt your love, or
if it was just a ghost,
too.
we lock eyes.
i laugh a laugh i thought
i’d lost after i met you
and watch you dissolve
in the rearview mirror.


will these
city lights still burn
my eyes after
i’m gone?
stars in their own right,
of our willdrowning out night but guiding
something, somehowgiving direction
however misguided
to those
finding comfort in false
constellations.