I do not need my hands to touch
you, love.
Your heartbeat is in your
words: the reverberation of
your being, which
pulses in my bones.
Tag: original poetry
Just Friends
When we say goodbye,
I always stop short before
I instinctively fill the space where
I love you used to be;
like someone ripped out
the last page of a book, leaving
it unfinished.
It feels so unnatural to say goodbye
like that–like standing at the edge
of a cliff.
If
if i can forget
my best friend’s birthday,
my ex’s phone number,
a drunken night,
then maybe I
will forget
you, too.
Maze
All my mind is what if’s and self accusation,
but I know our limbs didn’t fit together quite right.
I know we both were in our heads far more than
we were in each other’s arms, and that
even with you next to me, we were galaxies apart.
And like any other maze,
we knew there was only one way out.
Yet we ran through narrow corridors and high walls,
frantically searching for anything
but dead ends.
I’ve been force-fed I’m sorry‘s so many times I can no longer taste them.
Life’s Not A Cassette
I’m torturing myself trying to rewind a tape that doesn’t exist.
You Break It, You (Don’t) Buy It
I. She was a wide-eyed wonder with
a virgin neck of porcelain.
Her body did not know what it was like
to be dropped on the concrete.
II. You’d put her in your pocket
while you walked, wrapped
in bubble wrap and styrofoam, and
only exposed her
when you needed the time.
But you’d always wrap her up again;
you could never be too careful.
III. All this
wrapping and unwrapping has become
tedious, and your
fingerprints are fogging up her eyes
anyway, so maybe there’s
no point.
IV. You walk with her in your palm; swinging
your arms to
the rhythm of her breath.
She’s covered
in stickers and flower
thorns.
V. She slips from your fingers and
hits the ground.
Shards of her veins
explode on the pavement.
Her eyes glaze over–sticky
with your fingerprints.
Her neck is covered in
blossoming violets and roses
you willed to bloom with
your breath.
Her hands are
cold and cracked.
VI. She is too far
beyond repair,
and all you know how to do
is destroy.
VII.You step on her and
walk away.
Sometimes you cannot truly understand words until you’ve seen your footprints in them.
I love you, but…
Since when does
I love you
not mean
I love you?
Since when does it mean
I love you but…
You’renotenoughthere’ssomeone
elseletsjustbe
friendsIthinkIneedsome
space.
Since when have I been
telling myself
I love you, but…
Yourthighsaretoobigyourcheeks
aretoochubbyyourlegsaretoo
shortyourstomach’stoo
flabby.
Since when have I
expected to hear
I love you,
but
be treated like
I love you, but…
How long has love
been a lie?
How long have you been saying
I love you
but
wanting more?
Because
I love you
is not
I love you, but…
I love you
is
you’reperfecttome,Iknowyour
flawsbutstillandwillalways
want you, only you.
I cannot blame you.
You lied to me,
but
I love you.
You Left A Hole
the bottomless realization of
my own emptiness remains long after
I’ve forgotten your face.