i’m not even sure what these
three words
mean, but I know
when I look at you
there is a tsunami inside me and
the waves scream
I love you I love you I love you.
Tag: poem
We Look For Answers
in the palms of our hands,
on narrow roads that
twist and intersect.in wishing well eyes,
uprooting the fibrous tunic in
our frantic pursuit.in echoing cathedrals
where we lay our souls upon
wilting flower beds.in brilliant garbage dumps,
piled high, distorted into
siren’s songs.in the mountains and grasslands and
the coursing veins that run through
the dirt we were and will be.in the folded up papers
whose true triviality is unknown
until we are weaved
back into the earth.in the booming echoes of
our voices as we stand on
elevated hills and yell into the valleys
below.where they cannot be found,
for they reside far beyond
existence.
Closure
When you walked out
of my heart, you left
the door wide open.
I poured my soul out
on a paper plane
and chucked it through the
fragile frame,
hoping you’d read the words:
“Please come home.”I sat for weeks, waiting for you
to close the gaping hole
you carelessly left;
for you to walk through and
apologize for letting the bugs in, you hadn’t meant to, it was a mistake.
but you never did,
so I got up and closed
the damn door myself.
Don’t Look Back
You’re the only one who can pass me by and make me look back.
12.31.2012
I’m sitting here trying
not to think of
you,
but my mind always lets you
s
l
i
pin through the cracks when it
wanders.
Henry
I will never hear you say
why you did it;
but I like to think it was not out of fear
of the future or
cowardice, sadness, or unbearable weight on your slim shoulders,
but rather because you saw
what others felt
and you felt it, too;
and as you sat at the ledge looking down,
it was not out of weakness that you flew,
but out of bravery to know that your message
may not be heard,
out of hope that as you fell into eternal slumber
somebody would wake up
and feel the suffering,
too.
It Makes Music
I write to release
the emotions and feelings I’m
too scared
to express.
To see my thoughts
on paper. Sometimes
I write toremember
and sometimes toforget.
I write because it’s the only way to make
my feelings concretesolid
cohesive, understandable.
When I write, my
thoughts become art
instead of a jumble in my head.
Rock-a-Bye, Baby
Nobody warned you
that once I left
the warm walls of your womb,
I would be your sacrifice
to this world;
that I was no longer yours to control.
I was destined to move
with the mountains, to walk
barefoot on the soil and let the soles
of my feet close all gaps between me
and the universe.And yet you fight—loudly, violently, teeth bared—
to tell the cosmos I am yours.
My first unsteady steps, the first utterances
to tumble from my mouth, my every
achievement and failure
belong to you.
If you cannot have them, no one can,
not even me.And so you destroy
me
slowly; blindly tearing me apart,
consuming me until
I am once again
completely, undoubtedly, a part
of you.
Trudy
With cupped hands I show you
the parts of my soul nobody else has
touched.I am prepared for your eyes
to widen in disgust,
for you to take them
and crush them and
throw them away.But you hold them,
you know them,
you love them.And gently, carefully,
you place my darkness back
in my shaking hands.You have seen all of me and yet
there is only love in your eyes.
ED
The value of my existence has been
stripped down to a figure.
Input. Output.
I waste away into numbers until all I am is
the addition and subtraction
of nutrients. Of calories and carbs and fats and proteins.
I have pushed myself
out and left
an empty shell