i have been waiting.
through skin untouched
and sallow love.
i have been waiting;
i believe
it has been for you.

could it be
you are a shadow from
my dreams?
your voice,
where have i heard that
tone?
why does it sound so much
like home?

you’re so familiar to me // a.s.m

WEARY TRAVELER FINDS REST
WITHIN THE HEART OF A CHILD:
we are 
a miracle the world chortled
at thinking existed, a dream 
within a dream.
too far beyond
the imagination, a
hallucination of the heavens.

hallucination of the heavens // a.s.m

follow me to the end
of the world. 
i want to hear ‘i love you’
echoing off a canyon’s edge; 
your laughter, never ending
in the darkness.
your hand in mine, 
double helixes of fingers
two plants intertwined, 
seeking the same sun.

we have grown into each other // a.s.m

you’ve learned how to pay the bills:
the one thing you’ll always have
that you can always sell. 

and you know the market’s always great
for what you’ve got, so 
put on your slip
and your face, baby,
and don’t play in the mud 
on your way to the corner 
tonight.

lolita // a.s.m

you were the first person
i ever tried to convince myself
i did not love.
you were the first time
i denied the lava in my stomach.

you were perfect for me.
there was nothing about us
that didn’t make sense,
and yet i turned away.

for some reason,
i have such good timing
but such bad luck, and so
i always end up in the
arms of the wrong people.
i always end up
alone again.

even when i feel alone,
you are there to console me.
and i have finally realized that
if i were with you, you probably
wouldn’t have to be consoling me.
with you, i would be happy.
and that scares me.

“we accept the love we think we deserve” // a.s.m