i asked you for space,
but i don’t think your shadow understood
because i see it’s reflection in the sky
in the shape of the crows when they fly.
i know you have no reason
to not want to say goodbye,
but remember how i made you feel
when i whispered my way into your ear
to form mountains up and down your spine,
where your imagination would crawl to
places i did not know existed.
You always used to say if something was meant to be it would happen, and yet I can’t help but wonder if perhaps sometimes we are meant to fight for things to happen.
i don’t want to lose this
but don’t know what to say
to make you believe that
i want you
to stay.
you can change your hair and change your eyes
but your outer shell’s just a disguise
that’s soft to touch but hard to break through,
does anybody really know you?
When I tell you I love you,
I don’t just mean how
I love the brilliant green of your eyes or
your contagious, body-shaking laughter or
the way you kiss me.
I mean I love
the face you make before you sneeze
and the way your eyebrows furrow
when you’re deep in thought
and the way your ears get
bright red when you’re angry.
When I say
I love you
I mean that
I love you and
all of the parts of you that make you
exactly who you are.
I’ve heard that quote that says ‘do one thing every day that scares you.’ But what if every day is a nightmare that I’m not quite sure how to navigate? What if every day in itself terrifies me? What then?
You don’t need to understand it to enjoy it.
I am so tired of having to try so hard to make you happy, only to lose myself in the process.
If I cannot make you happy simply by breathing, perhaps I cannot make you happy at all.
please don’t leave me alone
tonight. there are spiders
in the corners of my mind,
spinning webs that spell out his name
and i’m afraid
if your arms aren’t wrapped
around me i will soon
be wrapped in silk instead.
Every now and then
I fall in love again,
but I think
you’ll always have my heart.
Silenticel 