I walked away from her believing I’d never be enough; I walked away from him knowing I deserved more.
Tag: spilled ink
Small Little Rocks
souvenirs from where i’ve
consumed.
sometimes they pile up and
build little homes inside me.
sometimes i can unclench
long enough to throw them
back into the water.
4/24/1915
i think I was born with
the taste of their blood in my mouth;
their story intertwined with mine
long before i was old enough
to start writing it.
the word genocide
passed down through generations–
an unwanted inheritance
laying heavy on our lips and
etched into the lines on
our palms.
a word small enough to hold
in the palms of your
hands holds the history
of a nation.
a word comprised of the lives
of 1.5 million, written in sets of
footprints in desert sands.
we are a people defined
by genocide.
we are the generations born
from the blood spilled before
us– a people who will fight to
have their history
bloom bloody red
with a stem of thorns.
their battle,
their blood, their lives
are now ours.
There is no their.
We are our.
Look where you want to go, not where you’re afraid to go.
Letter To My Future Self
When did you stop singing
in the shower?
When did you stop dancing in front of the mirror
in your underwear?
When did you stop being amazed
as colors melted into the evening sky? Or upon seeing
the stars peek out from behind the night?
When did you stop jumping in puddles and
catching snowflakes on your tongue
and eyelashes?
At what point did people stomp on your feet
so hard
that you no longer dreamt
of flying?
Hitch Hiker
One day
my heart skipped a beat
and I realized you’d made your home
in the caverns between my ribcage.
You treaded on my heart
while it was still soft,
skimming your hands along
the white walls.
You filled
the empty space,
you left nothing
untouched.
The only times you fucked me were when you fucked me over.
Autumn
Fuck.
I’m falling again.
It’s funny how even after the millionth time,
my stomach still tries to escape
through my mouth.
I’m unattached and
the wind cradles me, rocking me
in her arms.
For once it is just my veins and my skin
and my stem:
just me.
When the ride is over and
her hands slide me onto the ground,
I am destined to become
dirt.
Sleep talking
Prose rises
from your lips while
you sleep. I wish I understood
what you were saying, but
you mumble
in a language I will never know–
you whisper secrets
to me I will never hear.
Sunset
She blushes
for me every night
before she falls asleep and
I kiss the roses in her cheeks.
I yearn to touch her, but
my hands can only reach so far.
I have learned to be content
watching her eyes close.