Tag: spilled thoughts

Impossible Equation

in physics class
i learned
the further you fall,
the harder the landing:
F=ma.

i fell
for you at
90 miles per hour
without a parachute.

if the force of your lips
saying you do not love me
is like a thousand hammers
pounding at my heart,
what is the mass of
the empty shell
that remains?

Night Sweats

these mornings I find
my veins have drained
throughout the night
to create rivers running down my spine.

i’ve been drowning myself
in their cold waters these days, and
i’m starting to wonder
if it’s because part of me hopes
you’ll be swimming in them.

Freedom To Believe What They Want You To Believe

they dunked me underwater

long before i could swim. 

i was not born 

with communion wafers dissolving

on my tongue. 

they took my mind and

threw a snake in it. 

a slithering snake that snarls 

at humanity and 

what they have become. 

but i will laugh and dance while 

i am ripe and still have the

recourse to forget. 

motion is the only guarantee: 

they’ve not stamped a cross

upon me yet. 

Toxic

not like fists and
bruises and whiskey
on your breath. not
darkness in eyes and
screaming.
not poison apples, 
but i love you’s–
i love you too much.
i love you because i cannot
love myself.
toxic everything i own
in a pile on your floor,
toxic take all that is mine.
toxic maybe we can share
the burden, too.
toxic take, take, take
all the love
i don’t know how to give
myself. 

Mary’s Blue

dark blue– like childhood, like
memories. like
sinking into a dream.
bite marks on the black
plastic instead of
on your lips. 
covered in stickers
of where you’ve been.
your heart’s been torn
off your sleeve and 
the hole it left in the fabric
keeps unraveling.