i never wanted
to need you, 
but i closed my eyes and
unclenched my heart 
and now, when you’re gone,
sometimes
i’m lost. 

you have become a refuge. 
you lead me 
with open palms and 
bare soles
to the patch of 
sun on the asphalt
while the earth crumbles
around me. you sit cross-legged
and teach me how to smile again 
when the muscles in my face
forget.
 
you kiss me, with lips
like warm blankets, and
i am secure
amidst the chaos. 

you engulf me like 
the sea, and
i am drowning in
your serenity.

i never thought drowning could be so peaceful // a.s.m

you make me feel
something scary and
yet so comforting,
consuming. you are
a contradiction,
a recipe for disaster,
and yet i love you.
perhaps instinct
trumps common sense
in matters of the
heart.
perhaps my fear of
intimacy
will melt under your lips
and i will let you run them all over me.

exedo // a.s.m